I said it in front of their faces that everything that have happened, all the break-up and all the fight, I have a hard time dealing with it.

I didn't blame them.

I didn't blame anyone.

But I don't know why

I feel awkwardly weird to say it in front of their faces.

That ex boyfriend and ex best of friend

and the entire class

Maybe 

just maybe

maybe it's because I acknowledge that it really ends. It's ended for quite a while.

But when I finally said it publicly so it acknowledge other people too.

so it's both releasing and frightening.

But it's okay.

I'm okay.

this is who I am now.