Yesterday was the first time I took a highway from near my university back to my house. It's not exactly the first time I use this highway. Well, I used it a lot. But I'm not the one who drive, I was the one in the passenger seat next to him.

yay

I used the word 

He was my boyfriend.

and before that

he was my best friend

When we're doing a group project of 3 people together in second semester in our freshmen year,He didn't even know my name. And even when we're finished, he still had to ask our middle friend my name. But we're getting closer after our middle friend got a girlfriend and then left us hanging together a lot. And not long after that, I can't go do my regular routine like practice dancing because of my health issue and he in that time was still a swimmer, so we were like dinner buddy. I'll be doing my homework at Starbucks, waiting for him to finish his swimming practice program then after that we just ate and talked. 

I knew in my heart, he will be a very good friend of mine.

After we became dinner buddy, he offered me a ride home every Friday. (I stayed at dorm near uni but my home is quite far but not too much from his). I accepted his offer with excitement. I only knew I really like talking to him. I feel secure. 

So we're just talking stuff from stuff

, his dream about going to olympic

, favorite songs, bands, movies

, daily stuff

, family

, a lot of stuff 

and listening to music

coldplay

thai pop band I can't remember the name

maroon5

jazz, some times

but most of the times

he always chose to play Coldplay

Yellow is his favourite.

There're a lot of memories while we were on the rode. We went from being a friend to a good friend. From a good friend to a very best of friend we could ever ask each other for. and from that moment I looked at his back while he were walking around taking photo, I felt my weird heartbeat. I felt it.  I knew I had to stop my feeling before it will ruin everything we had. I knew I love him before he's known.

and I told myself I stopped and I stopped

but then he felt it too.

and from a best friend

we became a lover, a partner, a couple

and on that rode

We kissed, We fought, 

We held hands, We cried, 

We laugh, We sung, 

We yelled, 

We loved, 

We went up and We went down

He want to stop, I want another chance

We got back, We made things work

We celebrated our anniversary

We made our future plans

but in sometime between that

he fell out

and decided to end everything

even our friendship.

after that is a total mess.

so I will end that part of the story right here.

Like I said, there're a lot of memories while we were on the rode, especially on that highway. And I'm such an unfortunated person who can remember almost everything so vivid. 

Yesterday I want to go home quickly so I decided to take that highway straight to my house. I know I will think of him. I know those memories will repeat in my head like a movie that will never stop. After I found myself driving on this highway by myself for the very first time ever, I think

"don't you dare thinking of those stuff"

and this talking didn't work

so I distracted myself by singing out loud along to my Spotify playlist.

around 5pm or 6pm

traffic jam got me stuck 

so I looked outside

the sun was about to leave

the sky turned from blue to mixed blue grey and pink

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and I remember

the day he was so excited about maroon5 concert which held on the avenue near my house. We're just a good friend at that time. So he asked me to be his dinner buddy again before the concert start because he didn't know where to eat. I accepted his offer of course. It's on my way home anyway. 

I remember that day

mix up with 

the day we got back from our little trip inside the old town, he taught me how to take a film photo, we talked a lot, we shared our dvd list. We're still friend but I knew myself how I feel about him and I already told myself to stop.

I remember those day mixing up together,

Because the sky in those day shine so brightly.

It's bright blue.

When the sun was slowly leaving

It's turning to gold orange

the sky was so clear, I can see the temple from faraway.

I looked at those skyline

and looked back at him

he was concentrating with driving.

but still moving his head and his hands with the music

he smiled 

and sung out with a ridiculous sound to make me laugh

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the sky I saw yesterday was pretty.

blue grey and pink

but it fulls with cloudy mist

it's pretty

but it will never be the same.