There are things I never spoke to you tho I said I will. 

You must be tired of combatting my instability. for sudden grief, isolation, and tediousness. I healed from my past (I'll tell you later, secretly between us) yet I can't get over all of it. Some pieces of them still haunt and hurt me but I am no longer afraid since I have you here. 

Sometimes, I am insecure, no, it's not from you. I hate my thought for creating fake scenarios which I know so well that it's impossible to happen, but as you said, I am overthinking as fuck, I try not to over think but how can I? so you please be here to tell me that I was wrong when my mind is killing me. 

One thing that is hard for me. I always try my best to overcome my trust issues and I want you to know that I always try my best to open up to you, speak to you, and trust in you. I am struggling but with you, I know it won't be too hard. 

For me, you are my best friend who laughs at my silly jokes. I love to share meals with you. I am not a funny person yet you still laugh to the fullest with me. With you, smiling, laughing, and being happy are easy. You are like my sister. When you turn to me and ask if I cry, you hug me until my tears dry. I never told you but when your hands are on my face, wipe my tears and hold me tight in your arms, I feel so safe, loved, and comfortable. Don't say you don't know what to do when I am at my lowest, your hug is already enough. So please give me some attention, a little kind word, kiss me with affection, and hug me tight. Goddamn, I love you so, do you feel it dear?

*This is important.

I always say I love you, every day, as much as I can. My willingness to show you how much I love you through words is one, another reason is that I want you to aware that you are loved. You repeatedly say you don't really love yourself but I do. Even though you are imperfect, you are lovable. You deserve love and happiness, so please accept my love. Trust me as I trust you, even though we are imperfect, we are not alone and we are surrounded by love. It's okay to act a little younger than our age or grow a little slower than our friends. You are valuable, I want you to remember that I appreciate you for things you can't see by yourself, so let me be the one who tells you. I'm glad you entered my life. Please be with me, I'll try my best too. <3

From your Wanput :-))

4 am 3/11