Yep yep yep it's happening. My first post in English. I've been wanting to do this for so loooooong. But my goddam mind keep saying Stop! you're not capable of doing it. It is beyond your ability. Your English sucks! blahblahblah I know I'm not the only one here to feel that kind of way. I bet you a hundred buck, once in a life time, you feel exactly the same thing, even though it’s not with the same problem. But enough with that though. Those bullshits your mind been telling you and keeping you from doing what you want to do. STOP IT It's the time to take back what has been yours for so long.

Yesterday, yes, here we go again. Yesterday I watched a movie called 'Molly's game' didn't expect it to be good, but since Netflix's algorithm flashing a light green number saying helloo there, 90% ish match. Before I finished my meal and wasting my time just hovering over Netflix's movie catalogue, aight give it a goddam try then.

The first couple minutes of the movie got my attention right away. Surprise! Algorithm was right, this is something for me. The opening scene was at some kind of the snow mountain and there the protagonist ‘Molly’ talking about herself. I thought Molly is the skier, which she is, obviously. I mean I thought the entire movie was going to be about her skiing only, her journey being the skier alone. I didn’t bother to read synopsis before I hit the play button, so I absolutely got no idea what it was going to be about.

SPOILER ALERTTT! If you haven’t watched it yet, I suggest you to watch it first before continue to read on. They were talking about the Molly Bloom. She had trained as a skier for Olympic for a period of time, but there was an accident. She got injured and after that her life changed.

The FBI was at her door arresting her and there, ‘United States vs. Molly Bloom.’ Damn this brought me back those memories of taking the law class. Interesting enough, I thought. That’s why I still kept watching even though I finished with my meal. What she did illegally was related to the poker game— the government thought she had something to do with the Russian mob. That was why the FBI right there at her door. The main story line was about her legal process and hearing, interrogated by the attorney and government prosecutors. So there was a lot of talking, arguing and the legal vocabs right there.

What I really liked about the movie it’s not what she’s done or how she made millions of dollar and reported every cents to the IRS by the April 15th. I like her because of her empathy, her honesty and her thought: how she handled her life (not the drug part though).

It was far beyond my expectation. The story taught me more than the vocabulary. I thought when she tripped over the stick and it was it. The end game, but it was not. She got herself another path to go and she went.

Her father’s say in the movie shot me right in my chest: just a thing with a very low percentage chance it’ll occur doesn’t mean it cannot occur. Far more beyond that, when bad thing did happen, How are you going to deal with it? What is your responsibility? When she fell she didn’t pull others to fall with her. She fell, she then got up on her own feet and dealt with whatever life would take her to. She’s the hero of herself.

So that’s why I’m saying bullshit to those things my mind generated. You have to fall first before you rise up, before you knew what you shouldn’t do again and before you knew, what you need in order to get what you want. Failure is not a bad thing. A mistake is also not a bad thing. Importantly, what you learned from it.

Thanks Molly!

But before I end my first English post ever, I want to say that I have much respect to the judge in the case and the verdict read for Molly. He made me believe in the system and the laws written. I want more of him in the world so we can make the world rational place.