after broke up with him

and after losing friends

I realise now that I never want another pieces from other. I know I'm fucked up and screwed up in so many ways. I lost pieces of myself along the way of living and it's all because of myself.

But I never want another pieces.

All I ever want is patience.

I can't use another pieces from other because if I didn't do well as you hope, it will break you and it will break me.

All I ever want is stay with me with patience.

Mama bee from eh bee family said about Papa bee 

"He's a wonderful man and he's known my history and he didn't put my pieces back together. But he gave me a times and a patience to let me put my pieces back together"

It gave me kinda hope.

After everything I've been through.

I lost trust and faith.

But I always want to believe in it again.

Because when there's someone you can share your little or big moment in life with, it is call the real happiness. 

But even if I don't have anyone I can call a lover now.

I still have my family and my dearest friends who still love me even if sometimes I'm the worst human-being to be nearby. 

Remember it, JJ.

You're worth enough.