Trigger warning
Ring around the rosie
Pocket full of posies
Ashes, ashes
We all fall down
Satan’s affair is a spin-off book of Haunting Adeline. As I mentioned in the earlier book review, Sibby is my favorite character. I was dying to know more about her, and H.D. Carlton never let her readers down.
Reading Haunting Adeline, we might have guessed and got a glimpse of Sibby’s traumatic childhood. Yes, she is a mentally unstable maniac serial killer. She can brutally stab a man twice her size without even sweat. Sibby and her “henchman” travel with a carnival “Satan’s affair” across the country for five years. Killing people with a rotten smell, making this world a better place by eliminating demons one at a time. That’s what we know already. But what else did we not know?
What we didn’t know is how Sibby sees this world, and in Satan’s affair, we get a chance to see the world from Sibby’s perspective.
If you think Zade is a ruthless murderer, I’m here to inform you that you are solely mistaken. The things that Sibby does to the demon make me put the book down to take a deep breath. Even Zade himself has to step up and remind Sibby to calm down. Can you imagine? Zade? Stop a little girl from torture demons? Sibby is definetly the scariest demon in the room, disguised as a pretty doll girl. All the demons only see what they want to see, a harmless little girl in a ponytail, and that’s their biggest mistake. They shouldn’t have underestimated Sibby. They really shouldn’t have. But aren’t all demons the same? They believe themselves to be the strongest, toughest, scariest. Hiding their twisted crime behind a human's mask. Little did they know, real monsters don’t wear masks.
This isn’t a book about revenge, it’s a book about someone finally doing justice for the world. If you seek a book where the karma finally catches up with the demons, you are going to love Satan’s affair as much as I do. The things that I wish Adeline would do to her rapist but she didn’t do, Sibby actually did it in Satan’s affair. As much as it petrified me, it was also satisfying as hell. I can go back and read that scene again and again and never get bored. It’s like watching I spit on your grave 1 but in a pocket size book. It’s so gratifying. Almost like I’m having a brain orgasm. At this point I don’t even care anymore that I can read gore scenes without feeling sick to the stomach. And I don’t care that I don’t care. I dare say this without remorse—those sick fuck deserve what happens to them. Good job Sibby!
What I find to be the most fascinating about Sibby is that her character has depth. She isn’t just mentally unstable serial killer. She is so much more than that. She is also her own person. Yes, she is unhinged, scary, and has a short temper. But also, there’s a part of her that longs for things that were taken from her as a child. She seeks love, acceptance, friends, and warm food. Deep down, I believe Sibby is just a poor girl who wants to do good to the world and wants someone to see her as a friend, is that too much to ask for? My little psycho girl just wants to belong, is that a crime? I think not.
Yes, Sibby has five of her “henchmen” to keep her company, but as she says, “It’s not the same.”
To think that a lost soul spent years and years without someone by her side is just sad, too sad. If I could, I would hold her close and kiss her on her forehead. I want to offer her a friendship, a home, a safe place for her other than her dollhouse. And it’s not just me. Zade had already done the same thing for Sibby. He gives her a home, a friendship, a protection, a safe place. (Except kisses Sibby on her forehand of course.)
Sibby’s reaction when Zade calls her Sibby instead Sibel is so heartwarming. It’s no surprise why Sibby grows an attachment to Zade. He is the father Sibby never truly had. Beside her henchmen, Zade is the only person who Sibby is willing to listen and obey. It speaks volumes of how deep their relationship is. Even if they’d just met, when Sibby got arrested, she took all the blame and never even once mentioned Zade’s name. Sibby may have zero sympathy when it comes to killing demons, but she is loyal to her friend. There’s nothing she wouldn’t do to protect those she cares about. Beneath the crack doll makeup, Sibby is just a soft, needy, vulnerable, loyal, strong little girl. Which depths her character even more.
She is the most vulnerable and the strongest character I’ve ever read so far. I fell in love with her vulnerability, I stayed because of her strength.
Which is why the ending of Satan’s affair is unacceptable. I cannot accept the fact that her henchmen aren’t real. I can’t. What do you mean you created a character for us to fall in love and slap us in the end with “Kidding! They aren’t real!” Da fuck!? That’s brutal! I was sobbing so hard at the final chapter. I screamed and nearly threw the book out of the window. H.D. Carlton is really good at writing heart-wrenching scenes. And I thought the scene where Sibby was taken away from her henchmen was already heart breaking. Oh no. She has to stomp on my broken heart over and over. I've never felt such an urge to step into the book just to comfort the characters before. At least Adeline has Zade, but who does Sibby have? Five years behind those walls, who does she have? An illusion? Hallucinations? Something made up in her head? Fuck me both ways.
You call it brain damage, I call it a supernatural being. Just because human eyes can’t see something doesn’t mean they aren’t there. No. They are there and very real. This world is like a layer of an onion. There are dimensions and parallel universes that we don’t know about. But some certain people are capable of seeing, feeling—living between the two worlds at the same time. Sibby is one of those people. I have to believe it to be true. I have to. Otherwise my heart is going to shatter into a million pieces. And I don’t think I’m strong enough to endure that pain, nor does Sibby. My poor baby girl doesn’t deserve to be alone. She deserves someone who would stay by her side, protect her, make her laugh, hold her tight at night. She deserves to be loved and so much more.
For people who wish to read Satan’s affair after Hunting Adeline to find out who “Kraven” is, I’m just gonna go straight to the point and disappoint you, no, he didn’t appear in Satan’s affair. His identity still remains a secret. That’s another thing I’m so frustrated about. I’m dying to know who Kraven is. His appearance in Hunting Adeline makes Sibby run away from everything she ever wanted, he must have had some strong influence on her. I don’t know if there’s going to be another story about Sibby. I wish H.D. Carlton would write another spin-off. I NEED to know more about Sibby. One hundred and fourth four isn’t enough. Especially when H.D. Carlton dropped a name and never mentioned him again. WE. NEED. MORE. Don’t you agree?
Now, enough about the heavy stuff. Let’s talk about the spice scenes. When it comes to explicit sex scenes, rest assure, the name H.D. Carlton never disappointed us. Every sex scene is wildly unhinged and just as arousing as Haunting Adeline, if anything, I believe they are even darker. One girl against five henchmen? You either discover a new kink and squeeze your thighs together, or feel something sick twist deep in your stomach. Either way, I consider it a win win.
It’s like discovering a part of your brain you never knew was itching finally getting scratched. It feels disturbingly good—exhilarating—to finally release the darkest, deepest desire that was buried deep in the subconscious, the one we’re taught and told to suppress under society’s rules and norms. I don’t feel guilty or ashamed to admit I love to scratch that part of my brain with Satan’s affair. Those are good shit you can’t find on the internet, only with H.D. Carlton. That’s another reason why you should buy Satan’s affair and see it for yourself. Let’s scratch our itchy brains together.
9/10
Minis score for not mentioning Kraven and leave me hanging like a starved man. Who tf is Kraven? Is he going to be Sibby’s end game? I hope so? She deserves someone by her side. If not her henchmen then maybe Kraven. Just maybe. Satan’s Affair is surprisingly unhinged and even better than I was expecting. My little baby girl is the cutest. Don’t be afraid if someone accuses you of being crazy for reading something disturbing, just tell them what Sibby says….
“I’m not crazy. I’m just passionate.”
One, two, Freddy’s coming for you
Three, four, better lock your door
Five, six, grab a crucifix
Seven, eight, gonna stay up late
Nine, ten, never sleep again
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